Well, our baby’s anemia escalated quicker than we expected. At 24 weeks the baby’s MoM was 1.23, which is a good number. Six days later his number had jumped to 1.5. A few readings were just below 1.5 and several were as high as 1.56. This is why it is so important to have weekly […]
Today I had my 20 week ultrasound. Nora has been right on the threshold of needing a transfusion for the past couple of weeks so I just KNEW today would be the day that she would need her first blood transfusion. I was so nervous…sweaty palms, racing heart, sinking feeling in my chest. As usual, […]
…healthy, beautiful, chubby cheeked GIRL! Woohoo! Let the crazy baby girl shopping continue! Yesterday K and I went together to get a 3D ultrasound of the baby. We got confirmation that it is indeed, for SURE, a baby girl and we are SO excited! It was really nice to be able to spend some alone […]
This month is hard for me, especially this week. Lucy had two different due dates, July 2nd and July 7th. Every year when July rolls around I find myself depressed and aching for my daughter. She should be turning two years old this week. Oh how my heart hurts when I think about all of […]
Here’s a summary of our story: October 2006– Josh and I get married November 2006- Josh and I move to Seoul, South Korea to teach English (such a fun adventure!) April 2008– We find out we’re pregnant with baby #1! November 2008- We say goodbye to Korea and move back to Tuscaloosa, AL 7 months […]
I used to say things like, “God has never let me down in the past, so I can trust that He won’t in the future.” But now when I try to say that, the words get stuck in my throat. I begged Him to spare Lucy’s life. I begged Him to spare us the pain […]
We felt like God was calling us to adoption a few months ago, but being doubtful and fearful like I often am, I shied away from the idea. The main reason I was afraid of the idea is because of our financial situation at the moment. We are comfortable (we don’t mind a small home […]
So, despite our long scheduled plan to induce tomorrow, it looks like our little Nora will be arriving earlier than we thought! I came in to have some blood work done so that the blood bank could prepare the blood for Nora (in case she needs a transfusion) ahead of time. While I was here […]
Happy first birthday to my beautiful baby Nora. I still can’t believe she is here alive and thriving. I probably started writing at least four different blog posts about this huge milestone and how amazing this past year has been, but most of them ended up being about me and not Nora. I also ran […]
This is a very hard day for me. Last Thanksgiving we announced that we were pregnant with our third baby. I was 8 weeks pregnant and it was so hard to wait that long to tell people because I had been so sick (as usual.) It was really hard to keep the secret from my […]
Once again the days between my blog posts have stretched out to weeks and now months. I remember when I first started this blog in 2013 I was in such agony, it felt almost blasphemous to include the word hope in the title. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was caught in […]
I’ve been swimming laps this summer in the same pool I swam laps in two years ago, in the summer of 2012. That was the last summer our family and my heart were whole. I swam laps every day to try to lose my Asher baby weight and to prepare my body for my next […]
Psalm 55:22 Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you. “Child of My love, lean hard, And let Me feel the pressure of thy care; I know thy burden, child, I shaped it; Poised it in My own hand, made no proportion in its weight to thine unaided strength; For even as […]
Ultrasound pictures are hard for me to look at, even of my own babies. It was on an ultrasound that we first discovered that Lucy was anemic and that my antibodies were attacking her. It was on an ultrasound that we watched Lucy’s heart stop beating. All of Liam and Asher’s ultrasound pictures are stored […]