Just a quick update: Nora’s second IUT went great today. I was a lot less nervous because I’m now 26 weeks and Nora would probably survive if she had to be delivered. Everything went smoothly during the procedure. Her starting hematocrit was 27 and they got her up to 38, which is very good. I […]
On Jude’s due date I got a package in the mail. Inside was the sweetest handmade baby dress and matching bonnet. I’m using Siobhan’s picture of the dress because her photography skills are way better than mine. It was from Siobhan, another baby loss mom who I’ve never met in person. She lost her son […]
The other night we put up our Christmas tree. It wasn’t as sad as I thought it would be because the boys were so excited and their joy was contagious. I did have a breakdown when I saw this ornament, which should be Lucy’s this year (It says “Baby’s 1st Christmas” at the bottom.) But […]
*For those of you who feel weird about lactation, breast feeding, etc. now is your chance to turn away. You have been warned. I am proud to say that we have a growing store of breast milk in our freezer for our baby girl and it was produced by ME! I am lactating! How cool […]
Just a quick update on my ultrasound yesterday. Baby’s MCA scan showed lower numbers than Monday so we have canceled the IUT. Thank you to everyone who was praying with us! Baby looked great again on the ultrasound, no signs of hydrops or anemia. He was a bit less active than usual but that was […]
These four things are making me happy this week: 1. THIS BOOK BY RUSSELL MOORE: 2. THIS BOOK BY ANGIE SMITH: 3. THE REALIZATION THAT I CAN BREASTFEED MY ADOPTED BABY 4. EMBRYO ADOPTION (POSSIBLY IN OUR FUTURE)
Well, the year of the Nora, as I like to call it, is almost over. 2015 has been a year of healing and restoration. I will always remember it as the year my dreams came true, when God performed a miracle in our family. Nora is now 5 months old and is doing great. She […]
I have had this blog post mostly written and sitting in my draft folder for months now, waiting to be published. It weighs on me and I think about it often, rewriting certain sentences in my mind, adding and editing mentally while I go about my tasks during the day. Mostly, I want the whole […]
Those who suffer loss live suspended between a past for which they long and a future for which they hope. -Jerry Sittser It has been six months since I lost my baby girl. It has been six months since I lost my hopes for a big family and normal pregnancies. Half a year. I miss Lucy […]
Transfusion number four is done and now we only have one left before our Nora girl arrives! The procedure went very well and was the easiest one yet. Nora was in a great position for the procedure and tolerated the needles and extra blood well. She still isn’t making her own red blood cells (which […]
This morning I sent Liam to preschool with a note for his teachers explaining that he has a baby sister named Lucy who was stillborn earlier this year. This week his class is discussing, “My Family.” His teachers know he has a little brother, but they don’t know that he has a little sister. I […]
Our baby boy just had his second IUT this week in Atlanta and we are so thankful that everything went smoothly. With this IUT Dr Trevett made sure to give me an IV sedative and pain killer before the IUT, which really helped calm my nerves and dull the pain of the needles during the […]
How do you tell a baby loss mom that you are pregnant? How do you tell someone who is struggling with infertility that you are pregnant? I group those two types of people together because I think their pain comes from the same place- the pain of not having your baby in your arms. This […]
Our first IUT was successful and baby handled it well. He is squirming and kicking much more now than he was before the transfusion so he must be feeling a lot better. Dr. Trevett did an MCA scan right before the transfusion just to see what baby’s numbers were and his MoM was 1.5 but […]