I have started this blog post and then erased it several times. It’s a sensitive subject, growing your family, adding a baby, especially when you already have three and your pregnancies are extremely high risk. After losing a baby it can feel even more delicate and precarious to discuss pregnancy, child birth, number of children, […]
I was supposed to write this post several days ago to share The Allo Hope Foundation’s very first fundraiser ever, “Lucy’s Stocking.” Of course I put it off until the last minute. Today is Giving Tuesday and Facebook will match any donation sent to the Allo Hope Foundation on Facebook. But instead of focusing on […]
Our family has been enjoying our little Nora so much lately. She is probably the happiest, most laid back baby I have ever encountered. It’s almost like she KNOWS how amazing it is that she’s alive and she enjoys being with us so much. My mom said the other day, “She just doesn’t seem REAL.” […]
We finally have a treatment plan in place to try to save our baby. We worked on this for several weeks with our MFMs (high risk OBGYNs), with other women who have gone through the same thing and with the main expert in this field, Dr. Kenneth Moise from Houston, TX. We feel very confident […]
Once again the days between my blog posts have stretched out to weeks and now months. I remember when I first started this blog in 2013 I was in such agony, it felt almost blasphemous to include the word hope in the title. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was caught in […]
Today I celebrate seven years of marriage to my best friend. I prayed so many prayers asking God to give me the perfect man for me. I always knew he was out there. In college, when I was with a big group of people I would always think, “I wonder if he’s in this room […]
Well, Callum definitely won’t be going home this weekend. He has had a few setbacks so I’m trying to readjust my timeline and my expectations on when we can bring home our baby. His hematocrit dropped to 25, which isn’t too bad (they usually transfuse between 22-24) but he wasn’t feeding well, he was having […]
* If you are dealing with anti-Kell antibodies and are searching for information, don’t be scared or discouraged by my story. Your baby will probably be fine as long as you educate yourself and make sure you and your baby get the correct treatment. Make sure to check the bottom of the page for the […]
As with all of my anti-Kell posts, this one also applies to the other red cell antibodies during pregnancy; anti-D, anti-c, anti-E, anti-FYA, anti-Jka, and so on. One of the best ways you can protect your baby is to find out exactly how your baby is doing, and one of the best ways to know […]
*For those of you who feel weird about lactation, breast feeding, etc. now is your chance to turn away. You have been warned. I am proud to say that we have a growing store of breast milk in our freezer for our baby girl and it was produced by ME! I am lactating! How cool […]
Every baby is special, every life is important, and every Mom wants to show off her baby. For those of us who lose our babies too soon, we don’t ever get to show them off and we rarely get to say their names or tell people about them. In our country, thousands of babies are still […]
Just wanted to write a quick update after Nora’s appointment today. Dr. Moise did an ultrasound this morning to make sure Nora made it through the night ok and tolerated all of the extra blood she had been given. I was a little worried because even though I could feel her moving she seemed quite […]
The whole time I was pregnant, my goal was to get Nora past 25 weeks (viability) and out of my womb to safety. Thankfully, we got even further than that and we are so relieved that she is here with us. I never really thought past that point for some reason, so the past few […]
For some reason, the due dates of my children always end up burned into my memory. Even my living children; I sometimes get their birthdays mixed up with their due dates. The due dates of my lost babies, they are hard to get through. They are reminders of the special people I love so much […]