Today is our baby Pax’s due date. It is also Father’s Day and my Dad’s birthday, a loaded day, full of emotion. I was so excited to have a baby due on “Grandbarry’s” birthday, to have a fifth child. I always wanted five kids. Before I would commit to dating Josh I asked him if […]
*Several years ago I wrote a blog post called Anti-Kell Antibodies: Dr. Moise’s New Treatment and I promised to update the blog when there were new developments. This is the update 3 years in the making! *Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional. This is what I understand about M281 and the phase 2 trial […]
This post doesn’t really have much of a theme, just updating how things are going. I think every paragraph ends with a prayer request, sorry! We just need your prayers so much…they keep us afloat. On Monday I had my weekly IVIG treatment done at my house by a home care nurse. She will be […]
These four things are making me happy this week: 1. THIS BOOK BY RUSSELL MOORE: 2. THIS BOOK BY ANGIE SMITH: 3. THE REALIZATION THAT I CAN BREASTFEED MY ADOPTED BABY 4. EMBRYO ADOPTION (POSSIBLY IN OUR FUTURE)
I have been part of a red cell antibody study since 2013 and have really enjoyed my experience donating plasma for them. They use my antibodies to create test kits for pregnant women. During the first trimester, all women are screened for antibodies through a simple blood test (using these test kits.) There are many […]
A few weeks ago Liam asked me what his baby sister’s name was. I spelled it out for him “N-O-R-A, can you remember what that spells?” And he said, with frustration in his voice, “No, Mom, not Nora, my other baby sister.” My heart dropped and I said, “Lucy, remember? She’s in heaven.” And he […]
I have had vivid dreams since I was a little girl, and often my dreams come true. This may sound crazy and ridiculous to some people, but it’s true. As I grew up I realized that God was using these special dreams to tell me things or prepare me for something in the future. Sometimes […]
In my opinion, the greatest story ever told is the gospel. I love to look at the Bible as a whole; as one story. God created the world and it was perfect. No babies died, infertility did not exist, and there was no pain or sin. It was beautiful…exactly how the Creator had imagined it. […]
Well, our baby’s anemia escalated quicker than we expected. At 24 weeks the baby’s MoM was 1.23, which is a good number. Six days later his number had jumped to 1.5. A few readings were just below 1.5 and several were as high as 1.56. This is why it is so important to have weekly […]
*TRIGGER WARNING* This blog post includes my experiences through three very high risk pregnancies and discusses stillbirth. There are some sections specifically written for the women who have been given a poor or fatal prenatal diagnosis like we were. If you have a less serious high risk diagnosis, I suggest skipping over the “Go there once” and […]
Thank you all for praying for my 14 week appointment on Monday. It went as well as it could have. I was nervous about confronting the doctors again and asking them to do something they’ve already said they wouldn’t do. They wanted to start MCA scans at 16 weeks and I wanted them to start […]
I’ve heard many people say, “Don’t worry, God won’t give you more than you can handle.” But I’ve learned from my experiences that He does. Watching my daughter die in my womb is more than I can handle. Over and over again I come to the end of my rope and that’s when I look […]
How do you tell a baby loss mom that you are pregnant? How do you tell someone who is struggling with infertility that you are pregnant? I group those two types of people together because I think their pain comes from the same place- the pain of not having your baby in your arms. This […]
It has been six years since Lucy’s heart stopped. I have lived 2,191 days without my daughter. 2,191 times my eyelids flickered opened and I awoke to a world without Lucy in it. And I got up out of bed and I made it through the day. Over two thousand times. In all of those […]