Welcome to my blog. It is terrifying to write a blog, especially one about the most personal thing in your life. I now have so much admiration for anyone who has put themselves out there and started a blog. I originally started writing this to chronicle our journey through grief and IVF and surrogacy. It […]
Welcome to my blog. It is terrifying to write a blog, especially one about the most personal thing in your life. I now have so much admiration for anyone who has put themselves out there and started a blog. I originally started writing this to chronicle our journey through grief and IVF and surrogacy. It […]
*For those of you who feel weird about lactation, breast feeding, etc. now is your chance to turn away. You have been warned. I am proud to say that we have a growing store of breast milk in our freezer for our baby girl and it was produced by ME! I am lactating! How cool […]
Welcome to my blog. It is terrifying to write a blog, especially one about the most personal thing in your life. I now have so much admiration for anyone who has put themselves out there and started a blog. I originally started writing this to chronicle our journey through grief and IVF and surrogacy. It […]
Today is yet another hard day for us. March 19th, 2014 was Jude’s due date; our precious baby Jude, our fourth child that we know absolutely nothing about. We are so sad that we have to wait until heaven to meet him or her. We are comforted by the fact that Jude is with Lucy […]
Transfusion number four is done and now we only have one left before our Nora girl arrives! The procedure went very well and was the easiest one yet. Nora was in a great position for the procedure and tolerated the needles and extra blood well. She still isn’t making her own red blood cells (which […]
On Monday I had my first MCA scan at 14 weeks and 1 day. We started MCA scans at 14 weeks with Callum as well and with Nora we had the first MCA scan at 15 weeks. I was very nervous leading up to the scan and expected there to be no heartbeat. I kept […]
16 months ago we went in for Lucy’s second intrauterine blood transfusion, but instead, we helplessly watched her heart stop beating and a couple hours later we were inducing labor. I have lived 16 months without my baby. It’s like going 16 months without food, or water or air or sunshine, but worse. Seriously, think […]
Losing a baby turns your world upside down. Everything feels wrong. There’s nothing right about a baby dying before her parents. One of the hardest things to understand is why people like drug abusers and child molesters get to have healthy babies but my babies die. Sometimes, I feel like I’m being punished for my […]
*For those of you who feel weird about lactation, breast feeding, etc. now is your chance to turn away. You have been warned. I am proud to say that we have a growing store of breast milk in our freezer for our baby girl and it was produced by ME! I am lactating! How cool […]
*For those of you who feel weird about lactation, breast feeding, etc. now is your chance to turn away. You have been warned. I am proud to say that we have a growing store of breast milk in our freezer for our baby girl and it was produced by ME! I am lactating! How cool […]
Today is yet another hard day for us. March 19th, 2014 was Jude’s due date; our precious baby Jude, our fourth child that we know absolutely nothing about. We are so sad that we have to wait until heaven to meet him or her. We are comforted by the fact that Jude is with Lucy […]
On Monday I had my first MCA scan at 14 weeks and 1 day. We started MCA scans at 14 weeks with Callum as well and with Nora we had the first MCA scan at 15 weeks. I was very nervous leading up to the scan and expected there to be no heartbeat. I kept […]
*For those of you who feel weird about lactation, breast feeding, etc. now is your chance to turn away. You have been warned. I am proud to say that we have a growing store of breast milk in our freezer for our baby girl and it was produced by ME! I am lactating! How cool […]