What is your biggest fear? Losing a family member? Never conceiving? Dying? Divorce? What if you were told there was a 50% chance that your biggest fear would come true sometime in the next two months? My biggest fear has always been losing a child. It happened before and now there is a 50/50 chance […]
*Possible Trigger Whenever there is a new baby coming in my extended family, we make predictions about the baby’s birth date, weight and length. I think I started it with Liam and we’ve done it with all the babies that have come since (and there have been a lot of cousins since!) It is fun […]
Nora has become obsessed with her sister lately. It has taken me completely off guard. I don’t really know how to parent her in this situation since it’s all new to me. Nora wasn’t around when I was pregnant with Lucy and she wasn’t here when Lucy died or afterwards when I was paralyzed by […]
On this day nine years ago our baby’s heart stopped as we helplessly watched on ultrasound. It was by far the worst day of my life. A day that broke me to my core and divided my life into before and after. Of all the days of my life so far, I have thought about […]
Today, like most days, was a mixture of deep gratitude and grief. I think those who have suffered great loss have also been given a new perspective on life and a deeper sense of gratitude. My four year old, Asher, had his preschool Christmas play today. He was such a cute little wise man…yawning, playing […]
Just a quick update: Nora’s second IUT went great today. I was a lot less nervous because I’m now 26 weeks and Nora would probably survive if she had to be delivered. Everything went smoothly during the procedure. Her starting hematocrit was 27 and they got her up to 38, which is very good. I […]
Tonight my husband and I were updating our will. There on the paper it said to list all of our children and my heart broke. That third line was empty and I wanted so badly to fill it with Lucy Dair Weathersby. I love her so much. She is my daughter, my third child, but […]
It has been a while since I’ve updated the blog! Usually I am faced with the choice to either neglect the blog post I want to write, or neglect my kids and of course, my kids will always win in that situation. But I do desperately want to keep blogging. I still have so much […]
Every baby is special, every life is important, and every Mom wants to show off her baby. For those of us who lose our babies too soon, we don’t ever get to show them off and we rarely get to say their names or tell people about them. In our country, thousands of babies are stillborn […]
For the first time in my life, I have a 19 month old toddler and I am not pregnant. With all four of my other children by the time they were one and a half I was already pregnant with their younger sibling. As Callum grows it feels bizarre not to be growing as well […]
I tried to get on Babycenter yesterday, the website with the great support groups and discussion boards, but there was a glitch in the system. I had to get a new password and re-login. Right when I logged in there was a ticker at the top of the page that said, “Your baby- 3 months […]
I am so sorry I haven’t written any blog posts lately. I have a lot of posts written in my head, I’m just struggling to find time to get them typed out. This post was supposed to be published on October 25th, but I wasn’t able to finish it completely so I’m only just now […]
For the first time in my life, I have a 19 month old toddler and I am not pregnant. With all four of my other children by the time they were one and a half I was already pregnant with their younger sibling. As Callum grows it feels bizarre not to be growing as well […]
I have dreamed of hitting this milestone since the day I found out I was pregnant. It seemed impossible. I thought we would have at least 2 or 3 intrauterine blood transfusions under our belt by now if we did make it this far, but by God’s grace I am 24 weeks and Nora still […]