When I lost Lucy I knew the grief would overtake my world and would feel unbearable. It did. One surprising aspect of the grief has been the intense pain caused by pregnant bellies and baby girls. They remind me of what I don’t have. Even pictures of my OWN pregnant belly are impossible to look […]

God has completely shocked us and blessed us beyond belief and it couldn’t have come at a better time. We desperately needed something encouraging to happen to us after losing Lucy, Jude, Pax and “Scarlet” in less than two years. I was steeling myself for yet another difficult Thanksgiving and Christmas without a baby in […]

This is so exciting…the post I’ve been waiting to write for so many months now. We are expecting a baby in October! No, we are not pregnant, but we are still expecting our third earth baby to arrive in October. We have been chosen by the most amazing expectant mother (“K”) and father (“P”) who’s […]

Today I had my last round of plasmapheresis. I, as well as the doctors, were disappointed with the results. After my first treatment my antibody titer went from 512 to 128 but they tested it again two days later on Wednesday and it was right back up to 512. Again, the doctors tested the antibody […]

God has completely shocked us and blessed us beyond belief and it couldn’t have come at a better time. We desperately needed something encouraging to happen to us after losing Lucy, Jude, Pax and “Scarlet” in less than two years. I was steeling myself for yet another difficult Thanksgiving and Christmas without a baby in […]

This is so exciting…the post I’ve been waiting to write for so many months now. We are expecting a baby in October! No, we are not pregnant, but we are still expecting our third earth baby to arrive in October. We have been chosen by the most amazing expectant mother (“K”) and father (“P”) who’s […]

When I lost Lucy I knew the grief would overtake my world and would feel unbearable. It did. One surprising aspect of the grief has been the intense pain caused by pregnant bellies and baby girls. They remind me of what I don’t have. Even pictures of my OWN pregnant belly are impossible to look […]

God has completely shocked us and blessed us beyond belief and it couldn’t have come at a better time. We desperately needed something encouraging to happen to us after losing Lucy, Jude, Pax and “Scarlet” in less than two years. I was steeling myself for yet another difficult Thanksgiving and Christmas without a baby in […]

Psalm 25:3  Indeed, none who wait for you shall be put to shame. Psalm 66:5  Come and see what God has done: He is awesome in His deeds toward the children of man. I have finally found enough time to sit down and type out Nora’s birth story. It’s kind of long but I’ve been dreaming […]

This is so exciting…the post I’ve been waiting to write for so many months now. We are expecting a baby in October! No, we are not pregnant, but we are still expecting our third earth baby to arrive in October. We have been chosen by the most amazing expectant mother (“K”) and father (“P”) who’s […]

What is your biggest fear? Losing a family member? Never conceiving? Dying? Divorce?  What if you were told there was a 50% chance that your biggest fear would come true sometime in the next two months? My biggest fear has always been losing a child. It happened before and now there is a 50/50 chance […]

I have been so bad at regularly updating the blog these past few months! I have several posts written in my head that I really want to type out but I just cannot find the time to do it. Part of me feels guilty about this since I used to be so consistent with my […]

Our Nora Juliet is two months old today! Every day I get with her feels surreal. I still can’t believe she is here, in the flesh, healing our hearts and reminding us every day of God’s love and redemption.   Her first pair of real shoes Nora smiles all the time and has almost doubled […]

This is so exciting…the post I’ve been waiting to write for so many months now. We are expecting a baby in October! No, we are not pregnant, but we are still expecting our third earth baby to arrive in October. We have been chosen by the most amazing expectant mother (“K”) and father (“P”) who’s […]