I am now 31 weeks pregnant and still in disbelief. At least once a day I have a surreal moment where I see myself in the mirror or I see “31 weeks 1 day” at the top of the ultrasound picture or I realize that it’s JUNE and I’m still pregnant and I catch my […]
Yesterday we had a combination birthday party for Liam (turning 6) Asher (turning 4) and my niece, Camille (turning 7.) At the birthday party we revealed the gender of our miracle baby. Josh’s family was visiting from South Carolina, so they got to be there too. It was so fun. Since the birthday party was […]
Since Lucy died, the outpouring of love on our family has been amazing. The support we have felt from our friends and family and even strangers has helped carry us through the darkest time of our lives. I couldn’t believe when we had hot meals delivered to our door for four whole weeks after coming […]
Today I had my 16 week MCA scan. Even though we just had a scan on Friday and everything was ok, I was really scared that her numbers had gone up and she was anemic. Her numbers did go up, but not by a lot. On Friday her level was 1.27 and today it was […]
I am now 19 weeks pregnant, exactly how far along I was when I lost my Lucy Dair. It is a sad benchmark to reach, but wonderful at the same time because Nora is ALIVE! I know exactly what Nora would look like outside of the womb this week. Perfectly formed in every way, just […]
I am now 31 weeks pregnant and still in disbelief. At least once a day I have a surreal moment where I see myself in the mirror or I see “31 weeks 1 day” at the top of the ultrasound picture or I realize that it’s JUNE and I’m still pregnant and I catch my […]
Today our Nora Juliet is one month old! We are so thankful for the gift of one whole month with our daughter. I know many parents don’t even get that much time with their children. This will probably (once again) have to be a quick blog post. I have a small window of time while […]
We found out on Lucy’s due date that we were pregnant with baby number four and we were so thrilled. I actually had an appetite for the first time since losing Lucy and it was glorious. I ate everything I wanted and the food actually tasted GOOD. I forgot that food can taste good. I […]
This ache for her, this absence in our family, the missing her. It never goes away. Today I was at the playground with Asher and my niece and nephew. Right when we got there I noticed a baby girl Lucy’s age toddling around. My pulse began to race immediately and the anxiety started to grow. […]
Since Lucy died, the outpouring of love on our family has been amazing. The support we have felt from our friends and family and even strangers has helped carry us through the darkest time of our lives. I couldn’t believe when we had hot meals delivered to our door for four whole weeks after coming […]
I remember the day I gave my daughter back to God. It wasn’t the day she died. It was February 2nd, the day we learned that she was anemic and needed a blood transfusion. I knew how sick she was, she didn’t kick anymore. I had a dark, nagging feeling that Lucy would die. I […]
I remember the day I gave my daughter back to God. It wasn’t the day she died. It was February 2nd, the day we learned that she was anemic and needed a blood transfusion. I knew how sick she was, she didn’t kick anymore. I had a dark, nagging feeling that Lucy would die. I […]
IUT number 6 went great and the baby handled the procedure really well. We were surprised to find out that he wasn’t actually very anemic at all. His beginning hematocrit was 35 and Dr. Trevett brought it up to 45. Watching baby’s heart strip after the IUT The baby’s 7th and last IUT will be […]
So, we have decided to stop trying to conceive a baby naturally for right now. We have tried for 11 months which meant 9 negative pregnancy tests and 2 positives that ended with miscarriages. That is a lot of heartbreak, discouragement and hope deferred and all of it has happened right after the death of […]